Published date: August 2024
It’s been over 10 years since I created my ocs Ellie, Jester, and Scarecrow. 11 years to be exact, since my earliest drawing of them was from around May-June 2013. These characters have been used in a RPG maker game experiencing perpetual development hell, as subjects for illustrations, and just fun little dolls to play dress-up and make a million AUs of.
At their core, they are a simple group of 3 friends: Ellie, a normal girl who is prone to worrying and is a bit too sensible for the fantastic world she finds herself in; Jester, Ellie's self-proclaimed best friend and cheerful carnival inhabitant who has a penchant for never finishing stories; and Scarecrow, a forgetful and airheaded yet sarcastic guy who likes tending to flowers, who was searching for a certain truth. Well, if he forgot, it probably wasn't that important anyways!
Every so often, Ellie finds herself in what seems to be her bedroom in an unfamiliar world. According to her friends, she has come to visit before, and just forgotten. Their adventures usually consist of hanging out in a carnival, having tea parties, and ignoring the existence of a certain clocktower till Ellie must go. Rinse, and repeat! Forever, and ever. Because they live in a world where tomorrow and yesterday don't exist, where they can have the same adventures every time. As long as you don't stray from the garden.
If Ellie wants to stay, she must kill the mysterious 'King' of this world at the top of the clocktower.
Sounds cliche? Well I did write parts of this story as a teen after all.
Note: These evolution charts are limited to digital art. There's probably some traditional doodles here and there in my sketchbooks, but they're usually not very clean as I mainly used digital in recent years. There are some years where I didn't draw any full illustrations of them. I was pretty busy in 2022.
Forgive the inconsistent year numbering. I included more early pictures of Jester since he had a more drastic design change. Unfortunately, only one finished digital art of prototype Ellie was published to my deviantart in 2013. I lost all the early .sai files so can't find any digital doodles.
I had somewhat of an art block during 2016-2020, where I shoehorned myself into drawing in a cute style. You can see the devolution in anatomy and wildly inconsistent style during that time. In recent years (2021-present, 2024) I started experimenting more, grinding fundamentals, and improved significantly. I'm quite happy with that. Another fun thing is the difference in their personalities when comparing between these charts, which I hope is visible to anyone other than myself.
There was a quote by someone on Twitter, a piece of advice for young artists: Sometimes you have to move on. The big worldbuilding project you spent years refining may never catch on, but some random 5 minute doodle might, and that will become your 'thing'.
Well, I just can't 'move on'. Revellie is no deep worldbuilding nor epic tale of hundreds of intertwined characters. Despite the 10+ years of making stuff for Revellie and never really 'catching on', I always come back to this story. Not to say that literally nobody gives a shit about Revellie. There are some people I remember from way back in 2015, still interacting with my posts now and then on twitter or tumblr. It means the world to me. Thank you for your support, from the bottom of my heart.
I want to continue the development of Revellie, and tell their story in some tangible way. Does it have to be an RPG Maker game? No. But this medium fits with the story I'm trying to tell. Why not make a comic? I did consider it at one point. Maybe for some side stories. And god knows I'm no good with words, so trying to write a novel doesn't quite convey what I'm trying to say, ironically. Writing the script and dialogue for the game was hard enough. I could just be content making contextless illustrations and I was for a while.
Note: Crazy stream of consciousness rambling ahead... don't take it too seriously.
For the last 10 years their stories have been slowly evolving as ‘imaginary friends’ of sorts. At this point, they’re almost tulpas. Not just Ellie, Jester, and Scarecrow who go on adventures in the carnival. Representations of something. Without the time and experience, I wouldn’t have been able to give their story a satisfying conclusion. (...in my head. Even though I haven't really published anything with them yet) I have to live as long as their story goes unpublished. I just must make them real in some capacity, whether it takes 10 more years…
This does run the risk of my beloved ocs being headcanoned and misinterpreted to hell and back, losing their original intent and identity. Telephone game and death of the author. But no ideas can be 100% transferred without some loss of meaning. I don't know if anyone notices the symbolism/hidden subtext of these illustrations. There is something meaningful to myself, but without the relevant context the audience may interpret it differently. Even if we only understand 30% of each other, I hope my art makes you stop and think a little. Like piecing together lore from a game. On the flip side, I think I've accepted that my creations may never catch on and be wildly, virally popular. I really haven't made much to intrigue others.
I didn't intend to make something that is literally a stereotypical 'the creator's thinly-veiled mental illness/depression/escapism fantasy' but that's what it ended up becoming. Oh well. Don’t be too concerned, this is just halfhearted crazy talk.
End stream of consciousness